Wednesday - Thursday. gorgeous.
im still feeling all woozy from the weird sleeping hours. nyaah.
Abg Dir was our dear chauffeur for the night. was very nice of him.! Sweet.! Nyahahaa. Visited cpang for some supper supplies, and headed to pick aye up at 8pm. cost 30mins of our lifes thz to issues with our mobile phones. The whole thing was hilarious, really. Nyaah.
Had some nervous moments regarding the whereabouts of our chalet, thz to sya's msges.
"any sig landmark.?"
"hmms. Its dark? ... follow the road from change village. near OCH."
As I read the msg out loud in the comfort of the car,
"what’s OCH.?"
"old change hospital gaknyer?"
"OUWH. Muahahahahaa."
And we got lost from a couple of turns, only to realize that we've been traveling on netharavon and that we've passed the huge unattractive banner with 'Aloha' written - that place is very well lit at night, mind you.
you can even forget OCH is nearby, im serious.! Ahah.
There were a few awkwark moments initially, felt like we were crashing them when we've been invited actually. Sya's classmates were very friendly. But im such a social retard please; aye is worst. Nyaah.
Got acquainted with the bungalow, yes. Then hang outside – the night air tinged with aftermath of the rain was gorgeous - though wet, ahah. Found a reason to explore the areas for more supplies - aye's myth abt balding heads dint work. Nyahahaa.
So off we went, with my most trustworthy chauffeur. Somebody got uptight about forgetting to bring her wallet. Tsk tsk.
"its not on my dining table, I called home. I'll dig my bag again later."
"maybe it dropped in the car?"
"no lah, impossible."
So we bought more supplies. At Cheers and that foodcourt. Walking around there felt weird without my parents. Was hopeful to see some pons, but disappointed. Headed back to the carpark, to realize my dear chauffeur dint lock the car.! Omg.
Checked the interior to see if anything was missing, alhamdulillah ntg weird happened. BUT.
"OMG. MY WALLET.! HAHAHAHAHAA."
"HAHA.! so much for no lah impossible, you idiot.! Nyahahaa."
So that spells the end of aye's uptight moments. Now she's got money and ezlink card to go home.! Hah.
Good bye to my dear chauffeur. Leaving me, aimah, and aye at Bungalow F. no, im not cursing. that's the chalet's alphabet. ahah.
Yada yada yada. We eventually migrated from level 2 where we watched half of 'PRIDE AND PREJUDICE' (haha.) to the level 1 bedroom where we finished 'Meet The Fockers'. Yes, very old vids indeed - somebody forgot that she was supposed to bring dvd supplies.! WHO UH.?!
SSSSSSSS - HOEEEEEEE.!
- cute kid from the show mimicking the fav words of aye. Muahahaa.
When all done. Dearest Sya forced us to break out from our refuge and join the other inmates in the hall. There, we engaged in a game of UPWORDS where we learnt that 'two heads are better than one'. Followed by a series of UNO where each of us can only uno-game first twice in a night. coincidentally.?
someone was struggling not to be on the bottom table, haha.
Old-school games, gorgeous for a change. i actually forgot how tat game works, can you believe it.? Tsk tsk.
It got stale after a while, I was multi-tasking between not letting aye win, and building a pyramid with the mahjong blocks. Ouwh no noo, we did not gamble. Ahah.
Around 3am. Our rock-bottom moments disappeared as "we've exceeded the threshold of being sleepy" Sya explains. Ahah. the other inmates turn in around 4am. so we talked. And we laughed. And we talk talk talk to our heart's contentment.
My hp alarm rang, it was 6am.! And we dint even realize time was flying. Ouwh, the luxury of having all the time in the world. =))
The night was gorgeous. i'll miss moments like this. Sya even lost her voice.! Hee.
Soon, inmates woke up one by one for breakfast. We watched the same scene on Channel News Asia 3 times.! 7am, 8am, and 9am. ahah. fixed the meeting time/venue with the other half of SCAMZS. And we returned to our room.
Yada yada. Forced myself to get a nap at least. I tink sya woke me up an hour later. Showered, got dressed, packed up. And off we went at around 12pm. We're finally free.!
Aye just kept saying the place feels like a juvenile home, you see. The curtains, furnishing, and what nots. Makes me wonder how she knows a juvenile home feels like in the first place. Ahah.!
THANK YOU SYAHIDA DARLING.! For the invite.! Wee hee.!
Managed to snap a few pics. The bus stop was at a very convenient location. =)
29-ed to Tamp. 969-ed to Yishun.! On foot to BK yish GV. And we were right on time! 1.30pm sharp. Hee.
The bus ride was longgg. I prefer the mrt, hee. But ouwh well.! Lovely talk with aimah, though she's always stoning as usual. Nyahahaa.
Yada yada yada.
Bought food. NAZ joined.! Wee. Ate, talked, laughed. Many interrupting phonecalls. Finished eating, talked, laughed. Thennnn, an hour later. YUNI and CHER joined.! Wee hee.
So there you have it. SCAMZS reunited 3 months earlier before our annual anniversary meet-ups. Hee.
More and more talkings. And laughings, crappings, stonings, lip-readings, whatnots.
Two hours later, we almost decided to make a move. Took pictures-pictures before goodbyes, the rudimentary. Thz to aimah for her photographic help.? Ahah. Shifted to another seat with prettier sitting arrangement. Only to end up talking moreeee there. Nyahahaaa.
Sya left us, cos she was totally stoning already. Rock bottom, aye says. 31+ hours spent waking plus lost of voice.? gosh, poor thing.
I learnt that aye and me are truly best friends, cos we do not use the same shampoo? Ouwh, and we turned to look. Credits to Cher's analysis. Nyahahaa.
The conversation moved to random topics. Ended up bitching about some ex-ai pple whom I dint bother to get acquainted with in the first place, I lost interest in the subject. Bottoms were already tired, so decided to head homeee. Well, the whole clique made a move too eventually. Ahah.
So we left together, to the ladies, and eventually dispersed at the top of the main escalator.
So that's the end of another pretty SCAMZS meet up.
Members : Shafinaz, Cheryl, Ayuni, Munirah, Zahirah, Syahida.
Date : 29 November 2007
Time : 1.30 – 5.30 pm
Venue : Burger King Golden Village Yishun
Purpose:
Clearing the I-MISS-SCAMZS syndrome.
Rejoice in the POST-EXAMS PERIOD.
Minuted by :
MS MUNIRAH BTE M.S.
The 'M' in SCAMZS.
PS: I love my gorgeous darlings.! Every initials in SCAMZS. Wee.!
PPS: I've missed my home sweet home, hee. Ouwh, and the people in it.
PPPS: Im sorry about the online convo, for no longer being much of a confidante. You put me in an awkward position please.
PPPPS: And im sorry about the string of msges, I hope all ends well for us both. InsyaAllah. Again, thanks for everything. =))
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
* stop. rewind. play.
tuesday.
postponed blading with lala, cos i decided to clean up my room. HAH. sorry gerl.
shifted here and there. its much spacious, though im still not contented. im just too filled with languor to continue. plus, its not like im getting much of a help around here - to think that the amount of dust accumulated was actually contributed by two people at least. bleargh.
and yes, with the dust and all. it's inherent that i get cranky when im cleaning up my room. so please. leave it.
ouwh. i do not understand. it's disturbing either or.
i want college days all over again. then i'll get to sleep at 2 every morning. and still wake up at 6 every morning. tired, but not feeling useless.
what defines the freedom after exams when i spend waking hours _____ _______ and getting heartaches from _____ ______ when my nights would be an undisputable peaceful alternative. even that is wrong.
perhaps its disgusting that ladies turn nocturnal. hmms.
i want to get out and work. so i wont feel so lame and lousy at home.
i need ___ to be ____ ____. so i'll find it easier to give respect when responsibilities that ties with that respect being due are done. even the story of that reject-ntu-go-nie guy dint seem to ring any bells in ___ head. perhaps im being selfish and nonsensical to expect ___ to grow up. but with him being just as ______, i'm feeling more useless than ever at home.!
ouwh people. him is not referring to my dad.
my dad is very well indeed.
him is the other one im not sure to intepret as being ignorant or purely having under-developed pre-frontal lobes.
if the first. i'll find hard to give respect.
if the second. i'll be very afraid right now. plus that of the first.
and im not sure why im ____ target when i've spent lesser school-less days being useless than ____.
im still feeling cranky from post-spring-cleaning session. it would have been a much pleasant activity if i had done it in my i've-all-the-time-in-the-world spirits. ironically, i do have all the time in the world.! so why was i feeling rushed.? hmms. nvm that. im glad my room is all, cleaner.
meeting sya and aye online is such a pleasant break from my useless-ness. im glad i've been granted permission to overnight with them at the chalet on wednesday. precisely what i needed. my old darlings. woo hoo. such timely moment.
babes night, sya said. yeahh, been a very long while.
'i'll bring some pills cos im scared of needles', aye said.
she already donated blood twice okay.! nonsense. nyahahaa.
dear parents of mine, do not worry. you've taught me well. =)
i will not succumb to such, cos my pre-frontal lobe is pretty developed.? nyaah.
after my last entry, six people still had to ask me if im going for prom. i guess typing 'ps:...' here doesnt work. but i still like 'ps:...'-ing. nyaah.
dont forget to send me pics of midas' touches.! and i'll post plenty of our chalet nite, if we resort to camera-[i do not like using this word] after the pills. nyahahaa. joking.
least i'll come home to a cleannn room on thurs ey.! wee.
im still amuse how my blog entries always end with me being on hyped-mode. despite usually starting with tinges of depressions.
im still feeling useless btw. and fyi. i've just turned down an offer to relief teach. guess as what.?
some malay communication thingy. gosh.! i can never force myself to speak in baku malay like the kind spore's edu system forces us to.! i'd feel so, fake.?
hidup pasar.! ikan selar kuning ni sekilo braper cik.? muahaa.
[reminded me of a conver i had with one of my dearrr uncle. hilariously pityful.? hmms.]
ouwh. i've lost my fingerprints again. the thumb and pointer.
who needs an accomplice to murder someone.? hire me. i wont leave a trail.! hoho.
witness spastic in action. im done. hee. nites.!
it's 1.12am now. im gonna pray. and sleep.! so that i'll wake up early tmr.! for what.? no idea.
lets hope i dun miss subuh. if i stay up the whole night, i knowww i wont miss my subuh.! but ouwh well. i shall revert to being a normal lady who sleeps at night and wakes up in the morning from now on ey.
if that makes you happy. omg.! since when i turn to becoming so trivial and childish.?!
ouwh. maybe since i realise its okay to indulge in a series of 'Go-Go-Power-Rangers.!' at the age of __ and still be the apple of ____'s eyes.
omg. i really am so trivial.! damn it. im sorry to whom ever i've so ignorantly made a mockery of.
i really am sorry.
shit. i feel like crying, again. but i wont. cos i want to sleep, telling myself that i am a happy kid.
i am a happy kid.! when i stop being trivial. i really am.!
have always been, and will always be.
learn to appreciate.
life aint all unfair.
it's pretty, in fact.
alhamdulillah, for everything else.
sorry, a million times.
*munirah.
ps: this was typed in front of a fan, a day after i realised im useless. you do not want to know what i've typed preceding this posted entry. nah'uh.
pps: the chalet plan with babes was utterly impromtu. so exciting.! wee. =))
postponed blading with lala, cos i decided to clean up my room. HAH. sorry gerl.
shifted here and there. its much spacious, though im still not contented. im just too filled with languor to continue. plus, its not like im getting much of a help around here - to think that the amount of dust accumulated was actually contributed by two people at least. bleargh.
and yes, with the dust and all. it's inherent that i get cranky when im cleaning up my room. so please. leave it.
ouwh. i do not understand. it's disturbing either or.
i want college days all over again. then i'll get to sleep at 2 every morning. and still wake up at 6 every morning. tired, but not feeling useless.
what defines the freedom after exams when i spend waking hours _____ _______ and getting heartaches from _____ ______ when my nights would be an undisputable peaceful alternative. even that is wrong.
perhaps its disgusting that ladies turn nocturnal. hmms.
i want to get out and work. so i wont feel so lame and lousy at home.
i need ___ to be ____ ____. so i'll find it easier to give respect when responsibilities that ties with that respect being due are done. even the story of that reject-ntu-go-nie guy dint seem to ring any bells in ___ head. perhaps im being selfish and nonsensical to expect ___ to grow up. but with him being just as ______, i'm feeling more useless than ever at home.!
ouwh people. him is not referring to my dad.
my dad is very well indeed.
him is the other one im not sure to intepret as being ignorant or purely having under-developed pre-frontal lobes.
if the first. i'll find hard to give respect.
if the second. i'll be very afraid right now. plus that of the first.
and im not sure why im ____ target when i've spent lesser school-less days being useless than ____.
im still feeling cranky from post-spring-cleaning session. it would have been a much pleasant activity if i had done it in my i've-all-the-time-in-the-world spirits. ironically, i do have all the time in the world.! so why was i feeling rushed.? hmms. nvm that. im glad my room is all, cleaner.
meeting sya and aye online is such a pleasant break from my useless-ness. im glad i've been granted permission to overnight with them at the chalet on wednesday. precisely what i needed. my old darlings. woo hoo. such timely moment.
babes night, sya said. yeahh, been a very long while.
'i'll bring some pills cos im scared of needles', aye said.
she already donated blood twice okay.! nonsense. nyahahaa.
dear parents of mine, do not worry. you've taught me well. =)
i will not succumb to such, cos my pre-frontal lobe is pretty developed.? nyaah.
after my last entry, six people still had to ask me if im going for prom. i guess typing 'ps:...' here doesnt work. but i still like 'ps:...'-ing. nyaah.
dont forget to send me pics of midas' touches.! and i'll post plenty of our chalet nite, if we resort to camera-[i do not like using this word] after the pills. nyahahaa. joking.
least i'll come home to a cleannn room on thurs ey.! wee.
im still amuse how my blog entries always end with me being on hyped-mode. despite usually starting with tinges of depressions.
im still feeling useless btw. and fyi. i've just turned down an offer to relief teach. guess as what.?
some malay communication thingy. gosh.! i can never force myself to speak in baku malay like the kind spore's edu system forces us to.! i'd feel so, fake.?
hidup pasar.! ikan selar kuning ni sekilo braper cik.? muahaa.
[reminded me of a conver i had with one of my dearrr uncle. hilariously pityful.? hmms.]
ouwh. i've lost my fingerprints again. the thumb and pointer.
who needs an accomplice to murder someone.? hire me. i wont leave a trail.! hoho.
witness spastic in action. im done. hee. nites.!
it's 1.12am now. im gonna pray. and sleep.! so that i'll wake up early tmr.! for what.? no idea.
lets hope i dun miss subuh. if i stay up the whole night, i knowww i wont miss my subuh.! but ouwh well. i shall revert to being a normal lady who sleeps at night and wakes up in the morning from now on ey.
if that makes you happy. omg.! since when i turn to becoming so trivial and childish.?!
ouwh. maybe since i realise its okay to indulge in a series of 'Go-Go-Power-Rangers.!' at the age of __ and still be the apple of ____'s eyes.
omg. i really am so trivial.! damn it. im sorry to whom ever i've so ignorantly made a mockery of.
i really am sorry.
shit. i feel like crying, again. but i wont. cos i want to sleep, telling myself that i am a happy kid.
i am a happy kid.! when i stop being trivial. i really am.!
have always been, and will always be.
learn to appreciate.
life aint all unfair.
it's pretty, in fact.
alhamdulillah, for everything else.
sorry, a million times.
*munirah.
ps: this was typed in front of a fan, a day after i realised im useless. you do not want to know what i've typed preceding this posted entry. nah'uh.
pps: the chalet plan with babes was utterly impromtu. so exciting.! wee. =))
Thursday, November 22, 2007
*ending of an end.?
OUWH MY GOD.
this really is the day.! it really has ended.! it is really all over.!
im feeling very, very spastic.
i was fidgeting about half an hour before the paper ended, cos i had surprisingly finished it superrr early. ouwh my.
annd. i was repeatedly versing "alhamdulillah" the moment that nice invigilator collected my script today.! even hum this super old Raihan tune. haha.!
at the same time. it ended all too soon.! two years of my life just went, woosh.! done. depressing, dont you think.?
i enjoyed that last walk down the rows of table in the hall. it was gorgeous. haha.
tables D19. M2. and J19. =)
was euphoric seeing darling naz, pulled her to say "IT'S OVER.!" but instead, she turned all euphoric herself and throw me a hugeee euphoric hug, shrieking stgs super sweet euphorically. gosh, i miss that darling. and all of a sudden, dee jumped over euphorically and throw me another superrr huge euphoric hug, i was shocked by the continuous burst of euphoria. both stopped hugging me, and hug among themselves. before dispersing to our separate ways after a short conver. god. okay, i've missed them both.
i've missed SCAMZS and TJJTs.
and im gona miss IJC. much muchh muchhh.
headed to the libraria where darling lala and me distributed the 23 11D Grad Videos we had meticulously prepared before the papers. yes, it was a very trying moment for us both to get it completed. nyahahaa.
i thought lala did a perfect job, i was very touched myself watching the vid. she burnt a copy for me too.! up to now, i've viewed it 4 times.! nyahahaa.
breakfast with darling 11D. i'm feeling more attached to these darlings after the two years being cgmates. probly cos its a smaller group that the kind of classes we had it sec school. in any case, i'll definitely miss them. much to my dismay.
separated later on. cos someone was SLEEPY, boo cookie.! nyahaa. was left with lala and sofy. ahh* they're great companies. bowling at SAFRA and lunch at LJS. blissful moments. =))
everything was random impromtu btw.
met Sya darling at GV.! OMG. super pleasant surprise.! i miss that ladyyy.! was literally running from my seat to her.! though she dint give me a huge, sad, but least i MET her.! nyahahaa.
and aye msged to congratulate me for the completion of A's. she met dee, but not me.! boo.! so. i called her back to hear her voice.! ahah.! missed them both.
later. headed to my home, nearby. did our prayers, and watched the videos. ahh* pretty. ahah. my house, no no, my ROOM was in a mess.! it still is actually, haha. thot i'd be paisey, but ouwh well. they comforted me by challenging who's room is messier. haha.!
post-exam states. =)
overall. veryyy pleasant. i miss laughing so much. my stomach hurts.
and ouwh. i ran with aimah in the evening, haha.! like erps. finally.! dun ask how long, haha.
yada yada yada.
aimah is another wonderful company. nyahahaa.
im heading to lala's house again tmr.! third for the week.? tsk tsk. ahah. least she promised she'd vacuum her room today.! nyaah.
okay. im gonna do what i've promised myself at the start of A's.
WATCH PRIDE & PREJUDICE AT THE END OF A'S.!
one solid month of resisting this temptation okayyy. nyahahaa.
i lost count of how many times i've played that dvd. but who cares.! i've alllll the time in the world now.! nyahahaa.
ouwh ouwhh.! the freelance job i did on monday was soo time-consuming.! and i had another batch yesty nite. can you imagine, the day before Bio Paper 1.?! thank god the paper went smoothly today. hee.
alhamdulillah.
ouwh goddd.
im so gonna miss college days.!
and we just got reminded today, that our ezlink card would soon turn void.! nyahaa.
im missing the need to study already, haha.
okay. im missing a lot of things already. how short-sighted i've been all these while.! there's still too long a journey ahead.
ahhhhhh*
and and. i dint do one thing i was suppose to do today. im sorry.
okay nvm. im done.
22/11/2007. pretty pretty.
once again. alhamdulillah, syukur nikmat. hee. =)
PRIDE AND PREJUDICE,
*MUNIRAH.
ps: and dear people. im nottt wearing a dress, and im soo nottt with any guy.! yes, the answer is NO. i'm not going for prom.! nyahaa.
and and. for reasons i do not wish to impose on yall, so dont ask why.? but Have Fun ey.! hee. =))
this really is the day.! it really has ended.! it is really all over.!
im feeling very, very spastic.
i was fidgeting about half an hour before the paper ended, cos i had surprisingly finished it superrr early. ouwh my.
annd. i was repeatedly versing "alhamdulillah" the moment that nice invigilator collected my script today.! even hum this super old Raihan tune. haha.!
at the same time. it ended all too soon.! two years of my life just went, woosh.! done. depressing, dont you think.?
i enjoyed that last walk down the rows of table in the hall. it was gorgeous. haha.
tables D19. M2. and J19. =)
was euphoric seeing darling naz, pulled her to say "IT'S OVER.!" but instead, she turned all euphoric herself and throw me a hugeee euphoric hug, shrieking stgs super sweet euphorically. gosh, i miss that darling. and all of a sudden, dee jumped over euphorically and throw me another superrr huge euphoric hug, i was shocked by the continuous burst of euphoria. both stopped hugging me, and hug among themselves. before dispersing to our separate ways after a short conver. god. okay, i've missed them both.
i've missed SCAMZS and TJJTs.
and im gona miss IJC. much muchh muchhh.
headed to the libraria where darling lala and me distributed the 23 11D Grad Videos we had meticulously prepared before the papers. yes, it was a very trying moment for us both to get it completed. nyahahaa.
i thought lala did a perfect job, i was very touched myself watching the vid. she burnt a copy for me too.! up to now, i've viewed it 4 times.! nyahahaa.
breakfast with darling 11D. i'm feeling more attached to these darlings after the two years being cgmates. probly cos its a smaller group that the kind of classes we had it sec school. in any case, i'll definitely miss them. much to my dismay.
separated later on. cos someone was SLEEPY, boo cookie.! nyahaa. was left with lala and sofy. ahh* they're great companies. bowling at SAFRA and lunch at LJS. blissful moments. =))
everything was random impromtu btw.
met Sya darling at GV.! OMG. super pleasant surprise.! i miss that ladyyy.! was literally running from my seat to her.! though she dint give me a huge, sad, but least i MET her.! nyahahaa.
and aye msged to congratulate me for the completion of A's. she met dee, but not me.! boo.! so. i called her back to hear her voice.! ahah.! missed them both.
later. headed to my home, nearby. did our prayers, and watched the videos. ahh* pretty. ahah. my house, no no, my ROOM was in a mess.! it still is actually, haha. thot i'd be paisey, but ouwh well. they comforted me by challenging who's room is messier. haha.!
post-exam states. =)
overall. veryyy pleasant. i miss laughing so much. my stomach hurts.
and ouwh. i ran with aimah in the evening, haha.! like erps. finally.! dun ask how long, haha.
yada yada yada.
aimah is another wonderful company. nyahahaa.
im heading to lala's house again tmr.! third for the week.? tsk tsk. ahah. least she promised she'd vacuum her room today.! nyaah.
okay. im gonna do what i've promised myself at the start of A's.
WATCH PRIDE & PREJUDICE AT THE END OF A'S.!
one solid month of resisting this temptation okayyy. nyahahaa.
i lost count of how many times i've played that dvd. but who cares.! i've alllll the time in the world now.! nyahahaa.
ouwh ouwhh.! the freelance job i did on monday was soo time-consuming.! and i had another batch yesty nite. can you imagine, the day before Bio Paper 1.?! thank god the paper went smoothly today. hee.
alhamdulillah.
ouwh goddd.
im so gonna miss college days.!
and we just got reminded today, that our ezlink card would soon turn void.! nyahaa.
im missing the need to study already, haha.
okay. im missing a lot of things already. how short-sighted i've been all these while.! there's still too long a journey ahead.
ahhhhhh*
and and. i dint do one thing i was suppose to do today. im sorry.
okay nvm. im done.
22/11/2007. pretty pretty.
once again. alhamdulillah, syukur nikmat. hee. =)
PRIDE AND PREJUDICE,
*MUNIRAH.
ps: and dear people. im nottt wearing a dress, and im soo nottt with any guy.! yes, the answer is NO. i'm not going for prom.! nyahaa.
and and. for reasons i do not wish to impose on yall, so dont ask why.? but Have Fun ey.! hee. =))
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
*two days, say yayyy.!
omg.
im using my abg's comp. and its soooo frigging fast.! relatively to mine or the laptop, that is. rahhh.!
sometimes. i really hope people would stop emailing me, ahah. but i tend to find 'religious' emails elucidating, minus the 'pls forward this...' part. nyahahaa. was in a mood of clearing up my 302 unread emails, when i found an article.
here's a portion, if you bother reading...
Di akhirat nanti ada 4 golongan lelaki yg akan ditarik masuk ke neraka oleh wanita. Lelaki itu adalah mereka yg tidak memberikan hak kpd wanita dan tidak menjaga amanah itu. Mereka ialah:
1. Ayahnya. Apabila seseorang yg bergelar ayah tidak mempedulikan anak2 perempuannya didunia. Dia tidak memberikan segala keperluan agama seperti mengajar solat, mengaji dan sebagainya Dia membiarkan anak2 perempuannya tidak menutup aurat. Tidak cukup kalau dgn hanya memberi kemewahan dunia sahaja. Maka dia akan ditarik ke neraka oleh anaknya.
(p/s; Duhai lelaki yg bergelar ayah, bagaimanakah hal keadaan anak perempuanmu sekarang? Adakah kau mengajarnya bersolat & saum?..menutup aurat?..pengetahuan agama?.. Jika tidak cukup salah satunya, maka bersedialah utk menjadi bahan bakar neraka jahanam.)
if you're wondering. the husband's at #2, brothers at #3 and sons at #4. =)
uhhuh.
it sounds scary, that your sins are not only made accountable to yourself but the people around you whom you love.
i hope i wont be the one dragging my love ones down there, insyaAllah.
dan kepada kawan-kawan kesayanganku. i do not mean to be so blatant, but please. think about it. you people are already so pretty. Singapore's 'muslim' community may no longer place so much emphasis on wearing tudungs, but what's with the added effort of mendedahkan diri korang.? equivalent to the efforts of pulling your fathers down thereee.? tsk tsk.
i used to feel disappointed/pityful/saddd seeing people i know, like that.
now. i feel more sad for the parents, instead of for the friends.
hoho.
[sorry, my language sounds weird here. fusions of eng and karat-malay. ahah.]
in any case.! today.
im PISSED at _____. for 10 seconds while waiting for her ezlink to be topped up. for being so ignorant of her card value that i've to pass her moneyyy when i've already entered the mrt gantry [whatever you call it]. rahhh.!
im PISSED at _____. for about 10 seconds while typing an sms. cos she stood me up, rahhh.!
im PISSED at HOTMAIL. for about 10 mins for preventing me from viewing an important email.!
so. that's 10mins 20secs of being pissed today. haiii* whom ever involved,
i sooo wanna hate you, but
I LOVE YOU PLEASEEE.!
nyahahaa.
ouwh. A's gonna enddd.! wee.!
god. i love 22nd. haha.
and ouwh. yes. im already getting employed, from home. ahah.! that's the rudimentary reason for my mailbox spring cleaning session. simple admin work, not much of a pay, but its okayyy. let me do stg more beneficial with the laptop. frm HOME. hoho.
and anddd. i hope JPS needs relief teachers early next year. then i can see my brothers while at work, nearrr HOME. nyahahaa. just received the email that i've been registered by MOE. so exciting.! HAHA. =))))
to ____,
do not fret. i'll alwayyys be your home-bound girl.! not by force, but by choice. nyahahaa.
i find it amusing how my cgmates would always refer to me when they're picking venues for cg-outing. cos i generally refuse to go far-far, and they'll miss me. rite aixin.?? ahah.!
and so. everyone will noe. that my fav outing place is...? _________.! wee.
ouwh wait.! i forgot.! BIO paper 3 updates.
was weeheeeee.! only one paper lefffft! nyahahaa.
still couldnt complete my prelim papers during practice the night before, so that got me pretty nervous. but guess what. i completed A's in 1hr 30mins.! im still not understanding the mechanism of my brain. how it refuses to function at high speed during normal hours even if i force myself to (like when im eating, ahah!) but miraculously doing so only under exam conditions.
ouwh no. edit. it was still stubborn during prelims.
only under A's exam conditions. haha.
the structured questions were manageable. there wasnt any truncation of my thoughtlines in the 9 pages. except.! the last very retarding qns about nitrogen compounds which did not even sound like a bio qns.! i did crapped stg, which sounded rite, but ouwh well. thank god its 2 disposable marks, ahah.!
BUT. the one-choose-ONE essay was rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
feel the sentiments.? it got me breathless. nyahahaa. the very one chapter of lect notes which i chose to 'skim thru' costed 2o marks. NOT disposable okayyy. i wasnt much interested about SCID or CFTRs to commit them into my limited memory space. yada yada yadaaa.
well. least i did vaguely rmb a mutation of the CFTR gene which causes the deletion of phenylalanine, where.? haha. preventing the efflux of Cl- ions and influx of Na+ ions and retention of water molecules, so.? haha. then.? haha. anddd.? haha.
one page of answer, with only one line dedicated to SCID.
"SCID is an inheritable disease which is caused by the mutation of genes coding for proteins involved in the functioning of the immune system, thus producing dysfunctional polypeptides..."
i can imagine what MrsY wud have done to my script...
red markings with 'WHERE.?' 'SO.?' 'HOW.?' anddd 'YOUR HEAD AH!'.
nyahahaa. i'll miss that. im not even sure if SCID is inheritable, sh*t. and NOthing came out abt the human genome project. laughhhh.
okay. shall stop abt bio. i've shading-squares paper on thurs. wee wee.
roamed arnd sch after that, taking pics of our venues of enlightenment as if A's is over. and we got a pic of a blue place, reminds me of the day SCAMZS was formed. ahah.! i love them, the roaming people.
what we did after leaving IJ shall not be mentioned till after thurs. in case aixin drops by too early and figure out stg-stg. haha.
alright. this post is tooooooo longgggg.
omg, i just realised. the time on my abg's comp is soo retarded. its already 9.38pm but its 5hours outdated here. no wonder my abg is like that. ahah.! jokinggg.
kay. off off. sofia just recently found out that if the alarm clock ringsss, it just went off and not on. haha.!
alright. seriously. im gone. byeee.!
im feeling spastic talking to myself. okay, next victim.
aimahhh, where are youuuuuu.?
one last _____ to kill,
nyahahaa,
*muniRAHHHHH.
ps: its RAINING. and its LOVELY. i hate my abg for getting the windy-er room.! rahhh.! nyahahaa.
pps: i still do hate lifts. lala's house is highhh. nyahahaa.
ppps: i wanna eat.! hee. =)))))))))))
im using my abg's comp. and its soooo frigging fast.! relatively to mine or the laptop, that is. rahhh.!
sometimes. i really hope people would stop emailing me, ahah. but i tend to find 'religious' emails elucidating, minus the 'pls forward this...' part. nyahahaa. was in a mood of clearing up my 302 unread emails, when i found an article.
here's a portion, if you bother reading...
Di akhirat nanti ada 4 golongan lelaki yg akan ditarik masuk ke neraka oleh wanita. Lelaki itu adalah mereka yg tidak memberikan hak kpd wanita dan tidak menjaga amanah itu. Mereka ialah:
1. Ayahnya. Apabila seseorang yg bergelar ayah tidak mempedulikan anak2 perempuannya didunia. Dia tidak memberikan segala keperluan agama seperti mengajar solat, mengaji dan sebagainya Dia membiarkan anak2 perempuannya tidak menutup aurat. Tidak cukup kalau dgn hanya memberi kemewahan dunia sahaja. Maka dia akan ditarik ke neraka oleh anaknya.
(p/s; Duhai lelaki yg bergelar ayah, bagaimanakah hal keadaan anak perempuanmu sekarang? Adakah kau mengajarnya bersolat & saum?..menutup aurat?..pengetahuan agama?.. Jika tidak cukup salah satunya, maka bersedialah utk menjadi bahan bakar neraka jahanam.)
if you're wondering. the husband's at #2, brothers at #3 and sons at #4. =)
uhhuh.
it sounds scary, that your sins are not only made accountable to yourself but the people around you whom you love.
i hope i wont be the one dragging my love ones down there, insyaAllah.
dan kepada kawan-kawan kesayanganku. i do not mean to be so blatant, but please. think about it. you people are already so pretty. Singapore's 'muslim' community may no longer place so much emphasis on wearing tudungs, but what's with the added effort of mendedahkan diri korang.? equivalent to the efforts of pulling your fathers down thereee.? tsk tsk.
i used to feel disappointed/pityful/saddd seeing people i know, like that.
now. i feel more sad for the parents, instead of for the friends.
hoho.
[sorry, my language sounds weird here. fusions of eng and karat-malay. ahah.]
in any case.! today.
im PISSED at _____. for 10 seconds while waiting for her ezlink to be topped up. for being so ignorant of her card value that i've to pass her moneyyy when i've already entered the mrt gantry [whatever you call it]. rahhh.!
im PISSED at _____. for about 10 seconds while typing an sms. cos she stood me up, rahhh.!
im PISSED at HOTMAIL. for about 10 mins for preventing me from viewing an important email.!
so. that's 10mins 20secs of being pissed today. haiii* whom ever involved,
i sooo wanna hate you, but
I LOVE YOU PLEASEEE.!
nyahahaa.
ouwh. A's gonna enddd.! wee.!
god. i love 22nd. haha.
and ouwh. yes. im already getting employed, from home. ahah.! that's the rudimentary reason for my mailbox spring cleaning session. simple admin work, not much of a pay, but its okayyy. let me do stg more beneficial with the laptop. frm HOME. hoho.
and anddd. i hope JPS needs relief teachers early next year. then i can see my brothers while at work, nearrr HOME. nyahahaa. just received the email that i've been registered by MOE. so exciting.! HAHA. =))))
to ____,
do not fret. i'll alwayyys be your home-bound girl.! not by force, but by choice. nyahahaa.
i find it amusing how my cgmates would always refer to me when they're picking venues for cg-outing. cos i generally refuse to go far-far, and they'll miss me. rite aixin.?? ahah.!
and so. everyone will noe. that my fav outing place is...? _________.! wee.
ouwh wait.! i forgot.! BIO paper 3 updates.
was weeheeeee.! only one paper lefffft! nyahahaa.
still couldnt complete my prelim papers during practice the night before, so that got me pretty nervous. but guess what. i completed A's in 1hr 30mins.! im still not understanding the mechanism of my brain. how it refuses to function at high speed during normal hours even if i force myself to (like when im eating, ahah!) but miraculously doing so only under exam conditions.
ouwh no. edit. it was still stubborn during prelims.
only under A's exam conditions. haha.
the structured questions were manageable. there wasnt any truncation of my thoughtlines in the 9 pages. except.! the last very retarding qns about nitrogen compounds which did not even sound like a bio qns.! i did crapped stg, which sounded rite, but ouwh well. thank god its 2 disposable marks, ahah.!
BUT. the one-choose-ONE essay was rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
feel the sentiments.? it got me breathless. nyahahaa. the very one chapter of lect notes which i chose to 'skim thru' costed 2o marks. NOT disposable okayyy. i wasnt much interested about SCID or CFTRs to commit them into my limited memory space. yada yada yadaaa.
well. least i did vaguely rmb a mutation of the CFTR gene which causes the deletion of phenylalanine, where.? haha. preventing the efflux of Cl- ions and influx of Na+ ions and retention of water molecules, so.? haha. then.? haha. anddd.? haha.
one page of answer, with only one line dedicated to SCID.
"SCID is an inheritable disease which is caused by the mutation of genes coding for proteins involved in the functioning of the immune system, thus producing dysfunctional polypeptides..."
i can imagine what MrsY wud have done to my script...
red markings with 'WHERE.?' 'SO.?' 'HOW.?' anddd 'YOUR HEAD AH!'.
nyahahaa. i'll miss that. im not even sure if SCID is inheritable, sh*t. and NOthing came out abt the human genome project. laughhhh.
okay. shall stop abt bio. i've shading-squares paper on thurs. wee wee.
roamed arnd sch after that, taking pics of our venues of enlightenment as if A's is over. and we got a pic of a blue place, reminds me of the day SCAMZS was formed. ahah.! i love them, the roaming people.
what we did after leaving IJ shall not be mentioned till after thurs. in case aixin drops by too early and figure out stg-stg. haha.
alright. this post is tooooooo longgggg.
omg, i just realised. the time on my abg's comp is soo retarded. its already 9.38pm but its 5hours outdated here. no wonder my abg is like that. ahah.! jokinggg.
kay. off off. sofia just recently found out that if the alarm clock ringsss, it just went off and not on. haha.!
alright. seriously. im gone. byeee.!
im feeling spastic talking to myself. okay, next victim.
aimahhh, where are youuuuuu.?
one last _____ to kill,
nyahahaa,
*muniRAHHHHH.
ps: its RAINING. and its LOVELY. i hate my abg for getting the windy-er room.! rahhh.! nyahahaa.
pps: i still do hate lifts. lala's house is highhh. nyahahaa.
ppps: i wanna eat.! hee. =)))))))))))
Sunday, November 18, 2007
*my girl.!
aimah's home.! hee.!
and we're eating ChipsMore.! nyahahaa.
gosh. my 11D darlings just had a cookie party for lunch on friday, before our chem paper. and im eating cookies again.! im sooo getting ____.! wee.! nyahahaa.
aimah. cookies. RAIN. laptop. tv. what prettier way to spent my digression period. AHAH.
just five mins of homemakeover, i've teared. the amount of appreciation shown. was really touching please.! nyaah. i was amazed by how easily moved i got. which makes me realised. i may be laughing almost 24/7 but im actually super ________.
if throughout our course of friendship, you've witness moments of my breaking down. then i shall declare you, a truly darling friend of mine. and i love you so much.! nyahahaa.
wee hee.
and ouwh. dad asked me stg today. and im ______. again. hah.
okay. im off to continue with prelim papers. aimah shall stop being sucha distraction. ahah. but there's another distraction. the rain is so lovely.!
ahh* lovely.
nyahahaa.
no worries, i've slept enough. like a ___. so yes, i shall stay focus today. HAH.
cant wait for bio paper3 to end. cos then, i'll have a project to complete with dear lala.!
dead lines. woah.
so exciting. nyahahaa.
expression vectors of recombinant loves,
*MUNIrahhh.!
ps: i love bio, ahah.
and we're eating ChipsMore.! nyahahaa.
gosh. my 11D darlings just had a cookie party for lunch on friday, before our chem paper. and im eating cookies again.! im sooo getting ____.! wee.! nyahahaa.
aimah. cookies. RAIN. laptop. tv. what prettier way to spent my digression period. AHAH.
just five mins of homemakeover, i've teared. the amount of appreciation shown. was really touching please.! nyaah. i was amazed by how easily moved i got. which makes me realised. i may be laughing almost 24/7 but im actually super ________.
if throughout our course of friendship, you've witness moments of my breaking down. then i shall declare you, a truly darling friend of mine. and i love you so much.! nyahahaa.
wee hee.
and ouwh. dad asked me stg today. and im ______. again. hah.
okay. im off to continue with prelim papers. aimah shall stop being sucha distraction. ahah. but there's another distraction. the rain is so lovely.!
ahh* lovely.
nyahahaa.
no worries, i've slept enough. like a ___. so yes, i shall stay focus today. HAH.
cant wait for bio paper3 to end. cos then, i'll have a project to complete with dear lala.!
dead lines. woah.
so exciting. nyahahaa.
expression vectors of recombinant loves,
*MUNIrahhh.!
ps: i love bio, ahah.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
un-deprived*
nyahahaa.
i kept typing 'On Hiatus' for the past uncountable entries yet im still updating at the rate i've always been obliviously on. have you realised.? ahah.
i'll do myself a favour by eradicating any temptations of typing 'On Hiatus' for this entry. since. it'll only last for FIVE days.
yeah baby. FIVE days to 22nd November 2007.! and my journey of an ending shall conclude.
im beginning to feel that i do not deserve to celebrate on 22nd. cos i've already lost the nerves surrounding A's, a week ago.! nyahahaa.
ouwh. thank god bio's my last two papers. least im able to preserve the momentum of muggings on the basis of love for the subject. imagine if it was _____.!
ahah, go figure.
exam updates. i was amuse by the intro to chem paper 2, ahah. completed paper 1, again for the first time in a very veryyy long time. overall. both were wayyy merciful than the frigging paper 3. though i shall not comment if they're sufficient to alleviate my paper3 idioticity. [im not sure if the word exist. it just sounds nice, ahah.]
econs was, a complete relieve to be over. nyahahaa. i hate the darn essay please. both case studies were of familiar context, all credits to MrC. but i hateee the darn essay pleaseee. the microecons qns was rahhh.! and i was forced to ans the macroecons qns instead.
when i've neverrr attempted a macro qns thruout the plethora of econs mock tests before, NEVER.
fiscal and monetary policies, you better not screw me up.! nyaah.
anyway. when to JPS [my two idiotic lil brothers' primary school] on thurs. yes, before Chem P1, ahah.
A Family Bliss- The Musical. performed by lil kiddds. OMG. simply adorable pleasee.! nyahahaa. nothing fascinating abt the plot, or the singings. just the mere fact of lil kids performing, wearing nonsensical 'monsterous' costumes. on stage. adorable lah. nyahahaa.
breaking away frm the rudimentary shows on tv, it was pretty. kudos to the lil JPS kids for such an entertainment. simple adorable.
n ouwh.! yuni's lil sister was up there performing too. she was smiling so huge, made me miss my primary school days.! nyahahaa.
anddd. rahhh.! MY DARLING SISTER IS GONE.!
for tonight, only. nyahahaa. some environmental club camp thingy, she'll be sleeping with the sharks at Sentosa's Underwater World. bleargh, why dint we get to do such fun things.? so much for being VC of Green Club in AI.! nyaahaa.
i hope she'll get to clean up the dolphin's droppings. muahahaa.
anddd. my family went to Johor today.! watched movie, yada yada. while i choosed to be left behind. why.?
because i love biology, haha.
i need to define stem cells, they are undifferentiated cell mass.! know where to find totipotent, pluripotent, and multipotent ones.
i need to define clones. and rmb to autoclave only the culture medium in tissue cloning instead of the whole explant. because subjecting them to high temp and pressure will kill my little plant, gong gong.
i know what's auxin and cytokinin.! ahah.
i need to rmb the temperatures for denaturation, hybridisation, and elongation during PCR.
do you know where taq polymerase comes from.? Thermophilus aquaticus.! i tink. underline the genus and species.! not needed in syllabus actually. nyahahaa*
i need to remind myself not to mix up molecular hybridisation and southern blotting.!
i need to phrase my ethical problems related to gene theraphy so that i wud not sound spastic writing a GP essay instead.!
i need to know that direct bombardment using gene gun is totally diff from microinjection, ahah.
and i've not attempted to rmb the viral and non-viral vectors in gene theraphy.! omggg.
okay. i've just successfully recalled some of the stuffs i rmb seeing today. and the list goes onnn..
which means. im unprepared for monday.! hoho.
and anddd. i was reprimanded by dear MrsY during consultation slot,
'AND YOU. WRITE DOWN WHAT YOU THINK.!'
cos i happen to always thinkkk out the correct answers, but i havent been writing them during exams. nyahahaa.
so so. practice practice practice.!
uhhuh. prelim papers, here i come.! but first, i wanna eat dinner. ahah.!
notice how excited i get about bio papers.? if only i've this much love for my other subjects, since the start of college days, i'll be love-drained by now.! nyahahaa*
i tink the conversation i had with dad earlier today was amusing. ahah.
ad i tink i've been eating a lot off late. but whatever. who cares about getting fattt when im stress.! ahah.!
alright. i'll do myself a favour by resuming my morning runs, soon. and i'll play floorball again.! soon.! ouwh no noo, you sooo cant stop me.! nyahahaa.
life's a bliss.
treasure the moments.
wee hee.
genomic libraries of love.
*MUNIrahhh.! =))
PS: i'll miss these days. where studying is all that matters. god, you're full of irony. nyahahaa.
i kept typing 'On Hiatus' for the past uncountable entries yet im still updating at the rate i've always been obliviously on. have you realised.? ahah.
i'll do myself a favour by eradicating any temptations of typing 'On Hiatus' for this entry. since. it'll only last for FIVE days.
yeah baby. FIVE days to 22nd November 2007.! and my journey of an ending shall conclude.
im beginning to feel that i do not deserve to celebrate on 22nd. cos i've already lost the nerves surrounding A's, a week ago.! nyahahaa.
ouwh. thank god bio's my last two papers. least im able to preserve the momentum of muggings on the basis of love for the subject. imagine if it was _____.!
ahah, go figure.
exam updates. i was amuse by the intro to chem paper 2, ahah. completed paper 1, again for the first time in a very veryyy long time. overall. both were wayyy merciful than the frigging paper 3. though i shall not comment if they're sufficient to alleviate my paper3 idioticity. [im not sure if the word exist. it just sounds nice, ahah.]
econs was, a complete relieve to be over. nyahahaa. i hate the darn essay please. both case studies were of familiar context, all credits to MrC. but i hateee the darn essay pleaseee. the microecons qns was rahhh.! and i was forced to ans the macroecons qns instead.
when i've neverrr attempted a macro qns thruout the plethora of econs mock tests before, NEVER.
fiscal and monetary policies, you better not screw me up.! nyaah.
anyway. when to JPS [my two idiotic lil brothers' primary school] on thurs. yes, before Chem P1, ahah.
A Family Bliss- The Musical. performed by lil kiddds. OMG. simply adorable pleasee.! nyahahaa. nothing fascinating abt the plot, or the singings. just the mere fact of lil kids performing, wearing nonsensical 'monsterous' costumes. on stage. adorable lah. nyahahaa.
breaking away frm the rudimentary shows on tv, it was pretty. kudos to the lil JPS kids for such an entertainment. simple adorable.
n ouwh.! yuni's lil sister was up there performing too. she was smiling so huge, made me miss my primary school days.! nyahahaa.
anddd. rahhh.! MY DARLING SISTER IS GONE.!
for tonight, only. nyahahaa. some environmental club camp thingy, she'll be sleeping with the sharks at Sentosa's Underwater World. bleargh, why dint we get to do such fun things.? so much for being VC of Green Club in AI.! nyaahaa.
i hope she'll get to clean up the dolphin's droppings. muahahaa.
anddd. my family went to Johor today.! watched movie, yada yada. while i choosed to be left behind. why.?
because i love biology, haha.
i need to define stem cells, they are undifferentiated cell mass.! know where to find totipotent, pluripotent, and multipotent ones.
i need to define clones. and rmb to autoclave only the culture medium in tissue cloning instead of the whole explant. because subjecting them to high temp and pressure will kill my little plant, gong gong.
i know what's auxin and cytokinin.! ahah.
i need to rmb the temperatures for denaturation, hybridisation, and elongation during PCR.
do you know where taq polymerase comes from.? Thermophilus aquaticus.! i tink. underline the genus and species.! not needed in syllabus actually. nyahahaa*
i need to remind myself not to mix up molecular hybridisation and southern blotting.!
i need to phrase my ethical problems related to gene theraphy so that i wud not sound spastic writing a GP essay instead.!
i need to know that direct bombardment using gene gun is totally diff from microinjection, ahah.
and i've not attempted to rmb the viral and non-viral vectors in gene theraphy.! omggg.
okay. i've just successfully recalled some of the stuffs i rmb seeing today. and the list goes onnn..
which means. im unprepared for monday.! hoho.
and anddd. i was reprimanded by dear MrsY during consultation slot,
'AND YOU. WRITE DOWN WHAT YOU THINK.!'
cos i happen to always thinkkk out the correct answers, but i havent been writing them during exams. nyahahaa.
so so. practice practice practice.!
uhhuh. prelim papers, here i come.! but first, i wanna eat dinner. ahah.!
notice how excited i get about bio papers.? if only i've this much love for my other subjects, since the start of college days, i'll be love-drained by now.! nyahahaa*
i tink the conversation i had with dad earlier today was amusing. ahah.
ad i tink i've been eating a lot off late. but whatever. who cares about getting fattt when im stress.! ahah.!
alright. i'll do myself a favour by resuming my morning runs, soon. and i'll play floorball again.! soon.! ouwh no noo, you sooo cant stop me.! nyahahaa.
life's a bliss.
treasure the moments.
wee hee.
genomic libraries of love.
*MUNIrahhh.! =))
PS: i'll miss these days. where studying is all that matters. god, you're full of irony. nyahahaa.
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
still on HIATUS.
but i need this blog-therapy. why?
I SIMPLY REFUSE TO MUG TONIGHT.
haha.
spells failure on my part.? yes. tell me about it.
3 consecutive major papers for my H2 subjects. today's papers were better than yesty, but they're enough to drive me to complete languor.
please do not curse me if you happen to be among those H1 geographers with 4 consecutive papers. i emphatise, really i do. but having my darling H1 Econs flanked in between *bleargh* next week technically is of equivalent retardation on my part.
Chem's next, and im soo not looking forward to it considering how i've explicitly portrayed my inept self to the almighty cambridge examiners.
RAHHH.
05/11 - note that as my first tears-inducing A's paper. i'd do just as well not submitting that frigging script. to think that Chem was supposedly my strongest subject; it's devastating that im now worried about merely passing.
RAHHH.
[considering the plethora of effort MrL invested in me, i cant bring myself to face him if i screw up Chem. i'll hate myself for failing him. he got all emotional on his last day with us, i was ouwh-so-touched. his mood-swings have definitely impacted me in manyyy ways, i think i'll miss him. "the pen is mightier than a sword" he wrote to us. i'll use a pen to kill myself then, ahah.! heh. bedek.]
chem aside. i shall say that im relatively [highlight this word, relatively.] pleased with H2 Bio paper. completed it in 2hrs.! for the first time in my whole college history.! an achivement okayyy, despite blatantly skipping qns i term as having disposable marks.
[MrsY is so gonna strangle me when she reads this. AHAH.]
i cant recall what comes between King Phillips and the Green Soup. is Charles Darwin still alive.? my turn to strangle someone.! tsk.
quality wise, let's put a concealer ey.? heh.
[MrsY is definitely another tutor i'll miss- if i dare admit growing any more mature in thoughts throughout my whole college years, i'll attribute it to her. but! i've grown numb about disappointing her since i've longg accepted that i cant meet her expectation; doing better than her uncountable A's-filled cert. ahah. brutal reverse-psychoing; i'll be a teacher so i can do that just like her, ahah.! truly an inspiration.]
Math.? im not sure. i felt better upon completion of these papers, compared to my Prelims which i allllmost became a legend in class - quoted frm an idiotic cgmate. what im sure about, my papers arent mark upon 100%. they cant be. disposable marks.? ahah. tskkk.
[MrY's too nice, he wont strangle me. he'd always visit my seat in tutorials, glance at my script, appear sincerely emphatic, say 'dont worry, try harder next time!' and give a faint innocent smile before walking away - leaving me guilt-concentrated and on the verge of breaking down though im almost always able to convert those emotions into laughters which makes myself look apathic instead since i inexorably disappoint him. i wont get to be comforted like that for A's. He has the most patience, im ashame of my personal lack of effort. heh.]
though i hope i'll at least pull through with what effort i've put in these last sprints.
anddd. i hereby declare myself officially UNRELATED TO H2 MATH.! give me YAYs.! math is off the chart. permanently, presumably. unless of course, when i retake my A's next year. when, not if. hoho.
im not trying to input additional burden on my parent's mindframe, but maybe they should at least be mentally prepared to embrace that as my prospects for 2008. im utterly sorry to have been a disappointment again, i really am. heh.
General Paper.? ahah. i've seen A1, and i've seen F9. my language grades fluctuations are even more unpredictable than the hormone levels in me. ahah.! bottom line, though i did complete my papers; i shall not comment on GP.
ALRIGHT. im done lamenting. why did i even bother to cumbersomely elaborate about each papers.? so that i wouldnt be tempted to blog again for the next two weeks. makes sense.? yes, i'll let myself be deprived. ahah.
i've had many other non-A'levels related stuffs streaming through my mind that i wanted to blog about, but considering how long this entry already is, i'll pass. A's on top of my priority list now ey.?
YES.
do not worry, im still hanging on. persevering. =))
as much dreadful the thought of getting A's results would be, i cant wait. eradicate the nerves of anticipation earlier, the better.
to whom this may concern,
if i screw up my A's like i've been screwing up examinations throughout my college life, i'll have only myself to be blamed. i'll put it upon myself to make things right, and i willllllllll get myself a degree the way you've prayed for all my life. even if it takes more than the five years supposedly zero-family-obligations you gave when i first entered college.
on a more optimistic note, i can do it.! yay.! AHAH.
if i do get into a uni course next year, miraculously pulling through the URGH A's,
all that i can say would be.
alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah. hee. =)
"the best thing in life is to not want what you can have..." -wise old man, ahah.
i hope i get many, many best thingsss in life.
"i could have studied harddd and get triple A's, but i choose not to want it.?"
nyahahaa. sour grapeee.
okay, i'll get it.
and yes yes, im still hanging.! my parents really ought to stop worrying, though the great deal of concern they've splashed on me are much muchhh appreciated. motivating.
before you leave. once again, say a prayer for me please.?
it should contain these, "make the examiners lenient, give munirah good grades, and let her enter uni next year." nyahahaa.
thank you.! hee. =))
i tink im starting to sound spastic from excessive laughters despite being sunken deep into this trying moments of A's. hoho. it's not that i do not care, i just will not succumb to a state of depression from this stress. like PMS isnt sufficient enough.? nyahahaa*
alright, toodles.! weets. =))
All Smiles,
*MUNIRAHHH.
ps: googles search for ___ will not lead you to my blog unless you've alllll the time in the world, liarrr. hoho. all the lost times.
ON HIATUS, still.
but i need this blog-therapy. why?
I SIMPLY REFUSE TO MUG TONIGHT.
haha.
spells failure on my part.? yes. tell me about it.
3 consecutive major papers for my H2 subjects. today's papers were better than yesty, but they're enough to drive me to complete languor.
please do not curse me if you happen to be among those H1 geographers with 4 consecutive papers. i emphatise, really i do. but having my darling H1 Econs flanked in between *bleargh* next week technically is of equivalent retardation on my part.
Chem's next, and im soo not looking forward to it considering how i've explicitly portrayed my inept self to the almighty cambridge examiners.
RAHHH.
05/11 - note that as my first tears-inducing A's paper. i'd do just as well not submitting that frigging script. to think that Chem was supposedly my strongest subject; it's devastating that im now worried about merely passing.
RAHHH.
[considering the plethora of effort MrL invested in me, i cant bring myself to face him if i screw up Chem. i'll hate myself for failing him. he got all emotional on his last day with us, i was ouwh-so-touched. his mood-swings have definitely impacted me in manyyy ways, i think i'll miss him. "the pen is mightier than a sword" he wrote to us. i'll use a pen to kill myself then, ahah.! heh. bedek.]
chem aside. i shall say that im relatively [highlight this word, relatively.] pleased with H2 Bio paper. completed it in 2hrs.! for the first time in my whole college history.! an achivement okayyy, despite blatantly skipping qns i term as having disposable marks.
[MrsY is so gonna strangle me when she reads this. AHAH.]
i cant recall what comes between King Phillips and the Green Soup. is Charles Darwin still alive.? my turn to strangle someone.! tsk.
quality wise, let's put a concealer ey.? heh.
[MrsY is definitely another tutor i'll miss- if i dare admit growing any more mature in thoughts throughout my whole college years, i'll attribute it to her. but! i've grown numb about disappointing her since i've longg accepted that i cant meet her expectation; doing better than her uncountable A's-filled cert. ahah. brutal reverse-psychoing; i'll be a teacher so i can do that just like her, ahah.! truly an inspiration.]
Math.? im not sure. i felt better upon completion of these papers, compared to my Prelims which i allllmost became a legend in class - quoted frm an idiotic cgmate. what im sure about, my papers arent mark upon 100%. they cant be. disposable marks.? ahah. tskkk.
[MrY's too nice, he wont strangle me. he'd always visit my seat in tutorials, glance at my script, appear sincerely emphatic, say 'dont worry, try harder next time!' and give a faint innocent smile before walking away - leaving me guilt-concentrated and on the verge of breaking down though im almost always able to convert those emotions into laughters which makes myself look apathic instead since i inexorably disappoint him. i wont get to be comforted like that for A's. He has the most patience, im ashame of my personal lack of effort. heh.]
though i hope i'll at least pull through with what effort i've put in these last sprints.
anddd. i hereby declare myself officially UNRELATED TO H2 MATH.! give me YAYs.! math is off the chart. permanently, presumably. unless of course, when i retake my A's next year. when, not if. hoho.
im not trying to input additional burden on my parent's mindframe, but maybe they should at least be mentally prepared to embrace that as my prospects for 2008. im utterly sorry to have been a disappointment again, i really am. heh.
General Paper.? ahah. i've seen A1, and i've seen F9. my language grades fluctuations are even more unpredictable than the hormone levels in me. ahah.! bottom line, though i did complete my papers; i shall not comment on GP.
ALRIGHT. im done lamenting. why did i even bother to cumbersomely elaborate about each papers.? so that i wouldnt be tempted to blog again for the next two weeks. makes sense.? yes, i'll let myself be deprived. ahah.
i've had many other non-A'levels related stuffs streaming through my mind that i wanted to blog about, but considering how long this entry already is, i'll pass. A's on top of my priority list now ey.?
YES.
do not worry, im still hanging on. persevering. =))
as much dreadful the thought of getting A's results would be, i cant wait. eradicate the nerves of anticipation earlier, the better.
to whom this may concern,
if i screw up my A's like i've been screwing up examinations throughout my college life, i'll have only myself to be blamed. i'll put it upon myself to make things right, and i willllllllll get myself a degree the way you've prayed for all my life. even if it takes more than the five years supposedly zero-family-obligations you gave when i first entered college.
on a more optimistic note, i can do it.! yay.! AHAH.
if i do get into a uni course next year, miraculously pulling through the URGH A's,
all that i can say would be.
alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah. hee. =)
"the best thing in life is to not want what you can have..." -wise old man, ahah.
i hope i get many, many best thingsss in life.
"i could have studied harddd and get triple A's, but i choose not to want it.?"
nyahahaa. sour grapeee.
okay, i'll get it.
and yes yes, im still hanging.! my parents really ought to stop worrying, though the great deal of concern they've splashed on me are much muchhh appreciated. motivating.
before you leave. once again, say a prayer for me please.?
it should contain these, "make the examiners lenient, give munirah good grades, and let her enter uni next year." nyahahaa.
thank you.! hee. =))
i tink im starting to sound spastic from excessive laughters despite being sunken deep into this trying moments of A's. hoho. it's not that i do not care, i just will not succumb to a state of depression from this stress. like PMS isnt sufficient enough.? nyahahaa*
alright, toodles.! weets. =))
All Smiles,
*MUNIRAHHH.
ps: googles search for ___ will not lead you to my blog unless you've alllll the time in the world, liarrr. hoho. all the lost times.
ON HIATUS, still.
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